“The one who is [truly] imprisoned is the one whose heart is imprisoned from Allaah and the captivated one is the one whose desires have enslaved him”*
You know how that feels right? Did you realise a year ago how lost you were? How blinded you were by the worldly glitter and everything it entails? You were chasing shadows right? Getting nowhere fast while time was passing by and you had no clue that you were dead inside. You didn’t know what love was, you didn’t see true, unblemished beauty in anything and worse of all, you were a stranger to your own salvation. All the while thinking you had things under control, treading a path of inevitable destruction.
Then you fell down. A fall that broke some of the chains of your imprisoned heart; a heart that was dying slowly had a sudden palpitation of realisation. Allaah showed you how foolish you’d been. I know you still remember that overwhelming feeling of guilt and remorse. Imagine if you didn’t realise it? SubhanAllaah. Now you fear returning to the old you because you know what you didn’t know before… You taste the pure sweetness of Islaam and you’re reaping the fruits of it every single day. You know what love is and The One it is for. You see flawless beauty in the religion He legislated for you and you see that salvation is achieved by striving to follow it.
“In this world, man finds in the remembrance of Allaah, praising Him and worshipping Him, a delight that is incomparable to anything else.”*
Through opposites the things shall be known right? You’ve experienced tears of self pity and desperation, and the evil thoughts that they breed. And you’ve experienced tears of remorse and repentance and the pleasure of knowing “Indeed Allaah loves those who are constantly repentant and loves those who purify themselves[2:222]”. You’ve experienced short bursts of happiness but now you feel the most beautiful, enduring feeling of contentment.
“Every punishment from Him is pure justice and every blessing from Him is pure grace”*
Allaah freed your heart by His Grace and the only way it will keep its freedom is by enslaving itself to Him; that is true freedom. A humble servant of the Creator frees himself from ever being in the servitude of the creation. Remember that. Never feel secure that you won’t return to a state of blindness; keep begging Allaah for guidance and do so with hope and fear.
“Allah Humma, Ya Muqallib Al-Quloob, Thabbit Qalbi ‘Alaa Dennik”
“O Turner of the hearts, make my heart firm upon Your religion”
*Shaykhul Islam ibn Taymiyyah (رحمه الله)